Friday, July 28, 2006
broke down
sch work, projects, guitar
i cant catch up with work
i cant finish tutorials
tutors understand
but i feel bad
guilty
grp members dun understand how i feel
he values gf more than pw
did no contribution to grp
he feels that we left him out
hello?!
frustrated
members gave tutor consent w/o asking my opinion
i have no time at all
last minute work
still so fickle
pushing here and there
y cant u'all think for me?
pissed
major class discussion
din tell me anything abt it
kept it from me
am i not part of the class?
left out
sacrificed my time and energy for it
they dun cooperate
keep jamming
even got sc mad
if u'all dun wan den just tell me straight in e face
y waste everybody's time?
lost
if ure pissed wif me
den just confront me
dun give me all that shit
just buzz off
i dun give a damn
angry
stressed
pressurized
so many burdens
so little time
no understanding
i dunno what to do
sch work, projects, guitar
i cant catch up with work
i cant finish tutorials
tutors understand
but i feel bad
guilty
grp members dun understand how i feel
he values gf more than pw
did no contribution to grp
he feels that we left him out
hello?!
frustrated
members gave tutor consent w/o asking my opinion
i have no time at all
last minute work
still so fickle
pushing here and there
y cant u'all think for me?
pissed
major class discussion
din tell me anything abt it
kept it from me
am i not part of the class?
left out
sacrificed my time and energy for it
they dun cooperate
keep jamming
even got sc mad
if u'all dun wan den just tell me straight in e face
y waste everybody's time?
lost
if ure pissed wif me
den just confront me
dun give me all that shit
just buzz off
i dun give a damn
angry
stressed
pressurized
so many burdens
so little time
no understanding
i dunno what to do
BEECHed at : 11:58 PM
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
hi. haven been blogging since panorama. have been busy with work and esp guitar stuff. life so hectic that i fell ill. yes. AGAIN. i realised that i have been falling ill ever since i joined a non-sporty cca. yar. my standing board jump dropped frm 180+ to 160+. lyk wth!! i've nv gotten such a low grade for SBJ! perhaps its cos i had fever this morning. din have the energy. and i still dont.
tmr is the rehearsal for concert at vch. oh! a gd opportunity to promote the concert:
date: 29 july 2006
location: victoria concert hall
time: ard 7.30
tickets at $10 for stall, $15 for circle seats
wanna come? just need to tell me!
ok la.. i gtg rest. else i wun be able to go sch tmr. until the nxt time..
fever fever go away..
tmr is the rehearsal for concert at vch. oh! a gd opportunity to promote the concert:
date: 29 july 2006
location: victoria concert hall
time: ard 7.30
tickets at $10 for stall, $15 for circle seats
wanna come? just need to tell me!
ok la.. i gtg rest. else i wun be able to go sch tmr. until the nxt time..
fever fever go away..
BEECHed at : 9:09 PM
Wednesday, July 05, 2006
this post shall be the longest one in my history. so be prepared! heehee..
~4th July: Panorama~
some reflections..
the big day! yes! to be honest.. i had been very excited, nervous, anxious for this day to come.. ever since i stepped into tpjc. it was kinda the only consolation for me to stay in tp. but i was wrong.. ever since i embarked on the panorama journey, i began to understand the meanings of coordination, unity, patience and even perfection. the past ndp performance was unlike panorama. that time.. i thought i could just make some mistakes because there were so many of us. but for an ensemble.. this kind of attitude is totally wrong. what we want is perfect playing, perfect tempo, perfect speed, perfect coordination. in other words, we are perfectionists. we do not tolerate mistakes. on top of that, there were only 50 of us as compared to more than 500 of cedarians then. it was easy to spot a flaw when there were so few.
im honoured to perform at the esplanade! the name of the place is already so classy. haha. esplanade is like the best performing place in s'pore. and my very first big performance was held there. i couldnt believe it. honestly.. my first performance there might be my last one too. i consider this as an opportunity of a lifetime. in addition, i agree to what choo said. we were given the chance to perform on the same stage as prestigeous performers around the world.
the actual day..
i chose to reach school early yesterday because it was bro's b'dae. so i passed him the ugly package before leaving for guitar. lol! we practised the two pieces before boarding the bus. on knowing that we would go high later in the day.. honey and i decided to take a nap on the bus. so we did. at first we got a different dressing room as last time's. the toliet was so much smaller! i was quite disaapointed. lol. but we got back our room in the end. so.. yay! we did quite a lot of soundchecks. especially for the finale item.
that's goldi posing to my camera but not looking here. taken on the bus.
mr choo!
the toliet! nice eh?
toliet again! and that's me.
more toliet! guess who that person is..
we were so hungry by the time we finished the soundchecks! it was around 1 i think. so we had lunch at the green room which doesnt look like a room. really. but pity i didnt take a photo of it. after that we went to put on our make-up. as usual.. i was white. so i didnt want to take photos of myself with the flash. else i'd look like a ghost. seriously. but the outcome of those without flash was blur and have double images. oh well..
carin and me. blur huh..
after lunch and make-up was a run though of all performances. being one of the last performances, we had a lot of free time. and what did we do? guitar 2 and 4 played "hai dai", "hei bai chei" and "number-ba". the games were quite stupid la. but were very fun when so many of us were playing. so its like guitar 2 versus guitar 4. each would send one of their contenders up. den we go against each other. it was damn funny!
wenrong and me
we had dinner at 5 after the full run. yea.. late lunch and early dinner. i didnt finish my rice! after dinner we finally got back our hp! we couldnt bring in hps in case it rings during the performance. talked to jm for awhile den cho called us out for the last practice before the actual one. even so.. some of us rushed so much! maybe it cos of the nerves. yes.. we had half an hour to calm down before our turn to perform but it din really work. we just got more nervous.
goldi and me!!
when it was time.. we went "omg..". actually it wasnt that bad for me until we went to the backstage, behind the curtain. backstage was pitch black man! couldnt see a thing! time passed quickly as the malay dance ppl took their bow. it was time..
performance time..
i couldnt calm down as we walked into the choir gallery. what if i trip and fall? what if i drop my guitar? what if my guitar strings broke during the performance? what if i stared at the wrong time? these were the thoughts. it was nerve wrecking to perform in front of a full house. before i freaked out.. choo began conducting and we played. i couldnt care less about anything then. i just wanted to just get my stuff right and leave. i was thinking of the next note to play and to use vibrato at the correct time. before i know it, everything was over. we've done what we could. applause came roaring in. it felt good to know that we've done a good job. a sigh of relieve.
dancers danced. choir sang their song.. blah blah. and it was the finale item! one of the highlights of the show.
"Our Shared Dream"
Verse 1
Was it just yesterday we were standing on that barren land
The skies were clear and we’re dreaming of a future
Looking back on those days
We did not understand those feelings of anxiety
Will our dreams come true
In the end
Chorus 1
We are here today because of our shared dream
No one can say that we were lost in our own world
We’ll fly up to the sky and there unfurls
Our future Future
Chorus 2
This dream will lift us up when we are feeling down
And together we’ll press on to higher grounds
And to lift our dreams beyond the clouds
So that dreams won’t just be dreams
But they may be found
Verse 2
Maybe it’s just you and I
Our friendship keeps us going strong
Our shared dream will fuel our passion
Yes! My friend
As we journey through the years
We vanquish all our fears
The barren land no more
It’s a home for us
A home for us for us all
Repeat chorus 1 and 2
Bridge
And the billows never falter
For we conquered every night
Aiming to do what we can
Letting our dreams
Take flight
Repeat chorus 2
May be found ..
it is hard to believe that panorama is over. it took up so much of my time during the holidays. even gave me extra stress and pressure. but all of these are nothing as compared to the satisfaction and the experience it gave me. im sad that its over. but im happy with the result. panorama adds colour to my jc life. it is truly the best moment in tpjc yet.
i love the sunflower!
a few thanks to..
mommy and daddy
guitar members who stood by me
the people who turned up for the performance
06s27 for their support and the huge sunflower!
jinbo and the rest for screaming (yes i think i heard u :D)
jm for your moral support
choo for being patient all this while
judith and camilla for coming
seniors for coming up with the games (i had fun)
and finally.. for the very first time.. thank you tpjc for this wonderful experience.
~4th July: Panorama~
some reflections..
the big day! yes! to be honest.. i had been very excited, nervous, anxious for this day to come.. ever since i stepped into tpjc. it was kinda the only consolation for me to stay in tp. but i was wrong.. ever since i embarked on the panorama journey, i began to understand the meanings of coordination, unity, patience and even perfection. the past ndp performance was unlike panorama. that time.. i thought i could just make some mistakes because there were so many of us. but for an ensemble.. this kind of attitude is totally wrong. what we want is perfect playing, perfect tempo, perfect speed, perfect coordination. in other words, we are perfectionists. we do not tolerate mistakes. on top of that, there were only 50 of us as compared to more than 500 of cedarians then. it was easy to spot a flaw when there were so few.
im honoured to perform at the esplanade! the name of the place is already so classy. haha. esplanade is like the best performing place in s'pore. and my very first big performance was held there. i couldnt believe it. honestly.. my first performance there might be my last one too. i consider this as an opportunity of a lifetime. in addition, i agree to what choo said. we were given the chance to perform on the same stage as prestigeous performers around the world.
the actual day..
i chose to reach school early yesterday because it was bro's b'dae. so i passed him the ugly package before leaving for guitar. lol! we practised the two pieces before boarding the bus. on knowing that we would go high later in the day.. honey and i decided to take a nap on the bus. so we did. at first we got a different dressing room as last time's. the toliet was so much smaller! i was quite disaapointed. lol. but we got back our room in the end. so.. yay! we did quite a lot of soundchecks. especially for the finale item.
that's goldi posing to my camera but not looking here. taken on the bus.
mr choo!
the toliet! nice eh?
toliet again! and that's me.
more toliet! guess who that person is..
we were so hungry by the time we finished the soundchecks! it was around 1 i think. so we had lunch at the green room which doesnt look like a room. really. but pity i didnt take a photo of it. after that we went to put on our make-up. as usual.. i was white. so i didnt want to take photos of myself with the flash. else i'd look like a ghost. seriously. but the outcome of those without flash was blur and have double images. oh well..
carin and me. blur huh..
after lunch and make-up was a run though of all performances. being one of the last performances, we had a lot of free time. and what did we do? guitar 2 and 4 played "hai dai", "hei bai chei" and "number-ba". the games were quite stupid la. but were very fun when so many of us were playing. so its like guitar 2 versus guitar 4. each would send one of their contenders up. den we go against each other. it was damn funny!
wenrong and me
we had dinner at 5 after the full run. yea.. late lunch and early dinner. i didnt finish my rice! after dinner we finally got back our hp! we couldnt bring in hps in case it rings during the performance. talked to jm for awhile den cho called us out for the last practice before the actual one. even so.. some of us rushed so much! maybe it cos of the nerves. yes.. we had half an hour to calm down before our turn to perform but it din really work. we just got more nervous.
goldi and me!!
when it was time.. we went "omg..". actually it wasnt that bad for me until we went to the backstage, behind the curtain. backstage was pitch black man! couldnt see a thing! time passed quickly as the malay dance ppl took their bow. it was time..
performance time..
i couldnt calm down as we walked into the choir gallery. what if i trip and fall? what if i drop my guitar? what if my guitar strings broke during the performance? what if i stared at the wrong time? these were the thoughts. it was nerve wrecking to perform in front of a full house. before i freaked out.. choo began conducting and we played. i couldnt care less about anything then. i just wanted to just get my stuff right and leave. i was thinking of the next note to play and to use vibrato at the correct time. before i know it, everything was over. we've done what we could. applause came roaring in. it felt good to know that we've done a good job. a sigh of relieve.
dancers danced. choir sang their song.. blah blah. and it was the finale item! one of the highlights of the show.
"Our Shared Dream"
Verse 1
Was it just yesterday we were standing on that barren land
The skies were clear and we’re dreaming of a future
Looking back on those days
We did not understand those feelings of anxiety
Will our dreams come true
In the end
Chorus 1
We are here today because of our shared dream
No one can say that we were lost in our own world
We’ll fly up to the sky and there unfurls
Our future Future
Chorus 2
This dream will lift us up when we are feeling down
And together we’ll press on to higher grounds
And to lift our dreams beyond the clouds
So that dreams won’t just be dreams
But they may be found
Verse 2
Maybe it’s just you and I
Our friendship keeps us going strong
Our shared dream will fuel our passion
Yes! My friend
As we journey through the years
We vanquish all our fears
The barren land no more
It’s a home for us
A home for us for us all
Repeat chorus 1 and 2
Bridge
And the billows never falter
For we conquered every night
Aiming to do what we can
Letting our dreams
Take flight
Repeat chorus 2
May be found ..
it is hard to believe that panorama is over. it took up so much of my time during the holidays. even gave me extra stress and pressure. but all of these are nothing as compared to the satisfaction and the experience it gave me. im sad that its over. but im happy with the result. panorama adds colour to my jc life. it is truly the best moment in tpjc yet.
i love the sunflower!
a few thanks to..
mommy and daddy
guitar members who stood by me
the people who turned up for the performance
06s27 for their support and the huge sunflower!
jinbo and the rest for screaming (yes i think i heard u :D)
jm for your moral support
choo for being patient all this while
judith and camilla for coming
seniors for coming up with the games (i had fun)
and finally.. for the very first time.. thank you tpjc for this wonderful experience.
BEECHed at : 1:59 PM
Sunday, July 02, 2006
yay! new digital camera!
one more day to the 4th of july..
BEECHed at : 9:08 PM