NO MOTIVATIONive been really disappointed with myself lately for not being able to meet everyone's expectation. or rather, im disappointed cos im not meeting my expectations. i noe in my head that i really need to start becoming like how i was during j1. but its barely possible to do so cos i have like so many obligations.
syf syf syf. i think abt syf everyday. im worried for guitar 1 cos we cant do the runs well. and the reason why we got sliver level of judging by choo is mainly due to guitar 1. too few of us at ensemble ytd? i dun think so. it wld be messier if there were so many of us. we need to take things more seriously. gold with honours is so far away..
EIE said she's disappointed in me. cos i din reach her expectation and i din take it seriously. im sorry.
maybe its cos i pushed myself too hard during j1. that's why im feeling sick and tired of studying. i dun really see the point. i noe this way of thinking is bad but i just cant shake it off. this is probably like running 2.4km. i started out too fast on the first few rounds and im starting to slow down. or rather, im starting to walk.
i need counselling.
BEECHed at : 7:32 PM