~disappointed~

finally received my o's results ytd. didnt do well at all. got 12. expected 9. cant make it to SA. let my family down. let my teachers down. let my seniors down. let myself down. cried my eyes out. stopped crying for awhile. went home n cry again. locked myself in room. played guitar. received sms. cried again. i feel dumb. i feel stupid. did below sch's avg. ppl screamed wif joy n jubilance. while i weep in disappointment. ppl frm other schs cnnt understand. 12 is not considered gd in cedar. top scorer comes frm cedar. many got single digit. wad bout me? a mere 12 is not good enough..

went out wif jm b4 the release of o's.watched fun wif dick n jane. dumb movie. pointless. senseless. or mayb bcos i really wasnt in the mood. received msg tt someone failed eng in cedar. tot i was e one. cried after the movie(though it was supposed to be a comedy). but it happened that i wasnt e one who failed.

very grateful to those who stood by me. mom,sis, jm, yy, eve, yz.. thanks. it shows tt im not alone in this world.